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Ah, today's just one of those days that blows your mind away. Discoveries, self-analyzation and a look at the world in general... Heh, but like usual, a look at the world is remarkably depressing.
Let's start by the fun stuff. I have discovered, much to my regret, that I'm a power-hungry freak. That or I'm plain weird. Personally, I suspect myself being both. For example, today, since I didn't have my house keys handy on me (little spring break ^_^, so I got to stay at home) I exited the house via the garage. Nothing spectacular there- from a normal person's point of view. The key word here, is 'normal.' You don't know how difficult it was to resist the temptation to play with the garage opener all day.
Open... close... open... close... open... close... all at the touch of a button.
Some might wonder what this has anything to do with being a power-hungry freak, but if you can't make the connection, nothing on my part will convince you that I *am* a power hungry freak. Not until I conquer the world anyway.
Something that I can't classify as either good or bad comes up next. Crushes- innocent little things, come up all the time. For a good -has it already been four years?- I've been immune to this piece of insanity. If that's a good sign is neither here nor now. (actually, I'm a tad worried. The possibility of me being single and virgin for the rest of my doggone life has crossed my mind several times, but as I said- that's something to be explored at a later date.) Some of you who know me personally might be aware that I work as a volunteer at a program called 'special olympics.' We help mentally handicapped kids learn how to swim etc. etc.
Yeah, you guessed it. One of the kids has admitted to a crush on me. How I handle this is beyond my scope of understanding- though admittedly she's probably the smartest 'special needs person' I've ever met- probably smarter than a bunch of kids I know at school. But not my type. She what... eleven? Twelve?
Puzzles within puzzles within puzzles. (sigh) I can't even handle 'normal' people- let alone this. And my inherent inability to ask for help is gonna hurt me on this one. Moreso because I don't want to hurt *her.* I'll think of something... or I'll become do yet another major screw-up. Gah- sometimes I wish I didn't care as much.
No, wait, I take that back. I like caring about how others feel... it's a fuzzy feeling to tell you the truth. Some might think all this is trivial, easy to solve- but I've already scared off a few people; I don't have an iota of self-control when I'm surprised and quite honestly, I don't interact with enough people.
(Note to self: Meet more people and talk to them. Or something.)
Ok, now that that's out of the way, let's shift our focus to the good old place known as Newgrounds. Chaotic, kid-oriented and with more than it's fair share of random useless garbage- but it's fun. Sorta. Kinda.
Perhaps the appropriate words here are: not anymore.
There's a flash currently on the front page called 'blackman dead.' It's a tribute of sorts- one that I thought was damn good. So, me being all innocent and everything, I clicked on the reviews. By the gods I didn't know there were so many racists south of the border. I'm ashamed to be human. At least I know why Bush won the elections now. With that kind of mentality, I'd probably kill thousands of innocents too.
Jeez, goddamn arsewipes, get a LIFE- no get a friggin' SOUL!!
Another worthy discovery was something that I dare not mention. Save that it will take some pondering- you know the mysteries of life and so forth. Also discovered on Newgrounds. To give you a hint, you've probably already heard of it.
Hmpf. I wonder if I'm reading into all of this a bit too deeply. Oh well. MC wanted an update. Here's an update. Perhaps a bit too philisophical- but hey, I'm in the mood to write, so why not?
~Deathwyrm
(Oh, I highly recommend "There She Is!!! Step 2- cake dance" also found on NG. Cute and funny- also helps me forget the idiotic fleabag that humanity can sometime prove itself to be. And if someone argues with me over the Bush thing you're just proving my point.)
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